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Cassandra "scoffs with compassion" Igarashi ([personal profile] queenofseers) wrote2018-02-02 10:02 am
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h2no: (bad feelios)

[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-09 04:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[he shrugs an okay, slipping it back on.]

I'm sure they do goth coats... [said with a little smile which... sigh.] Niko got Ported back in which... [he rubs his face.] Yeah. Red and Blue were basically my shitty adult kids, then Niko just completely despises me. Which-- fair enough, but he's still a young teenager in a world that's completely different from home. I'm the only other one left that would get his issues.

[he makes a face.]

Maybe one day Woden will be ported directly into a woodchipper, if we would be so lucky.
Edited 2019-02-09 16:28 (UTC)
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-10 03:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks, [he says, as the cab pulls up. gestures for her to get in first, though he doesn't open the door for her. he's not THAT much of a gentleman.] That battle showed only good things.

[even if thinking about his situation with niko and the people from home here makes him simultaneously extremely tired and wired with anxiety. he doesn't mention it (thankfully, seems like opening his mouth at all is a risk), but archie imagines cass knows how that feels quite intimately.]

Hmm... best of luck with that. How many woodchippers are in England? Enough?
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-11 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[the cab is warmer, fortunately, and archie slides in after her. he's just being polite cass, god!! the cab driver kind of... glances at the topic of conversation, but seeing as it was an app order, all he does is clarify the address. archie gives a confirmation, then leans back.]

I'll have Crobat find him and drop a shit on him, consider it a one year anniversary gift from me, [he says with a faint grin.] Aye, two years here. Feels like a decade though, don't it?

[he glances over at her.]

What were you doing out? I just realised I've completely disrupted it.
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-12 08:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I've had far more powerful gods try to kill me. He doesn't scare me.

[that's a bald faced lie! look at that, the tmi field didn't catch it.]

Oh, good. So it's the worst situation it could be. What happened with them?
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-12 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
If it makes a move, contact Aegis. I'll see if we can't help-- or at the very least offer some additional protection for you or anyone you think he'd target.

[he looks away, nodding in understanding, then coughs suddenly, inhaling.]

I-- pardon?
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-13 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
[archie stays silent for a moment as cass speaks, thinking it over. when he replies, he's at the same volume she's at. he's not always loud? who knew!]

About a year ago, there was a teenger that got ported in here. He'd come from a real bad situation and-- physically and mentally he was a wreck. I was still in government housing then, so we met when he showed up at the same place. I did my best, even though it wasn't really... that great, but he eventually ended up going to hospital to get the help he needed himself. He got out and it was all well and good, but the way shit is here, he backslid a little.

[he sighs.]

He got ported out a long time ago, but the last conversation we had before he left was him telling me that it only go so bad because I didn't do enough to help him-- that his mental break was essentially my fault. I know it wasn't, entirely, but it was still horrible to have a conversation like that. I'm thinking-- maybe Rex thinks that Martin needing that help from someone else would mean it's his failure as well. I don't think Martin would speak to him like that, but... I don't know. Maybe I'm just projecting.
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-13 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
It makes me worried for when Martin or Rex inevitably port out and don't come back.

[he says with a shrug. far more blunt than he's like, but... that's sort of the name of the game, today.]

I don't doubt it. I wouldn't normally, but if they ever agree to it I'll tell him I've been using the same service for the better part of a year. Maybe it would help to know when the people around him need help, they go for the same thing.

[he looks out the window as he says this-- archie doesn't know cass's own situation and he certainly doesn't want to sound accusatory.]

I won't do anything without Rex's sayso, though. Him and Andy are the closest thing Martin has to a legal guardian and the one he trusts and knows the best.
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-14 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
[he just grunts; after gaining and losing so many found families, archie can't help it constantly weighing on his mind.]

I don't plan to use it as an ace in the hole, or anything. Just so he knows we're not trying to push him into something neither of us have no experience with. If he dismisses it, then it'll be what it is.

[it doesn't bother archie-- at least... he doesn't think it does. is that how he truly feels? he's not sure. when it comes to how he actually feels about anything, it's so habitually repressed it's just kind of a dark fog.]

It's just... going to be harder if Rex needs it as well and refuses to even consider it. I'd rather he weight his options instead of kneejerk, but... I guess we gotta accept that it might not even be something that happens. Forcing it would be against the entire point.
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-15 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
A stranger who's trained to know why he's responding the way he is, [he offers, a little lamely. he doesn't actually know what rex's exact problems are, but... he's a soldier, right? so theoretically he must have problems common to soldiers.

ironically, archie currently thinks rex has quite a good opinion of himself. he sighs.]
I didn't know it was so bad, though. Have you... told him how badly it affects you when he responds like that?

[he looks out the window as the cab drives on. he can't help but think about all the people he cared greatly for that were ported out when they were on bad terms. matt and brendan are just two of them.]

...Yeah. Especially when they need help and you can't do shit all about it. It fucking hurts so much sometimes it feels like it was a complete mistake to trick yourself into thinking feeling for anyone was a good idea [wow okay project more], but... you'd rather have your relationship with him, even when it's like this, than be without him, right?
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-16 04:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Definitely. I'd rather try and get help than just wave it off and continue to suffer and get worse and worse.

[he frowns, trying to ignore the immediate thoughts he gets like, maybe it's one-sided? he really didn't think rex was... like this. that he'd make her feel so bad, be told, then just wave it off? he doesn't know what to think and honestly, doesn't really want to think about it at all.]

You live with him, you ridiculous woman. Do you really think if you up and left they'd just shrug and continue on? Maybe there is a timeline where you're that, but it's not this one!
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-17 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
Understandable concerns, but that's why we're being so careful about hiring. I've already been through about twenty I don't think'll fit the bill. I think... with the sort of thing that's wrong with all the crap that happens... there's a high chance it'll only get worse, anyway. People will keep porting out and Martin will keep thinking he's being abandoned and that he's the cause of all ill in the world.

[he looks over at her, concern showing on his face.]

No, but they'd be losing a close friend, wouldn't they? [...] You might-- you'll probably come back. That happens, sometimes. It's not guaranteed, but... if you look at the statistics of imPorts who've died then come back through the Porter, it's high. Not that that's a comforting thought.
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-19 02:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Hmm... I'm trying to find private ones instead of tossing him into a system. So far there's only really been one that seems good with intense child PTSD and anxiety, but of course I can't promise them anything until Rex gives the a-okay.

[he shakes his head and while he doesn't say anything, it's clear in his expression he feels the same way she does.

the cab pulls up outside the new house. archie pauses before he gets out.]


I think you're faced with something horrific, and however you handle it leaves little room for criticism. It must be unimaginably hard preparing for the best case scenario, let alone the worst.
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[personal profile] h2no 2019-02-20 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
When I find someone I'm willing to put forward seriously, sure.

[archie has even less of an idea about rex's worries than cass-- the closest idea he had was just relating it to his last bad experience with a younger import and therapy that made him feel shitty. it could be something completely different.

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You don't have to know. Let's just... maybe not talk about it. If we can. If I start crying again I'm gonna jump out a window.

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