It's just- look, none of this is rational. That's how emotions work, which fucking sucks.

[ That's where she's landed at this point- that her grief and anger isn't going anywhere, and maybe it never has. She has too much of it to handle. Now she's got so much care for others, too, and she knows that's good to have, even though it hurts so often. ]

All it means is that we care about you, and you care about us, so- you don't have to do anything to make up for it or something. Fuck, I hate that you feel like that. I worry about you so fucking much.

[ Oh, god, she shouldn't have said that either. She gets up and stirs the pot for...no real reason, trying to act casual. ]

But- I mean- you're not doing anything wrong. Wow. Whatever's happening right now is absolute bullshit, if you didn't realize it.